Monday, April 27, 2015

memory (margo elena and possible someone remix)

maybe he will...

like a song he hasn't heard in forever
that familiarity
that connection over time
nostalgia

it was a lovely tune

i even enjoy the sound of dissonance,
when it's done right

good music never gets old.
(my friend said that once at a Tom Petty concert, to a middle-aged lady who seemed surprised that we were there)

i think he enjoyed our music, for the most part...
though he wasn't too interested in my solo stuff (literally.)
things didn't go that deep,
as deep as I would have liked, anyways...
which isn't even that deep, actually.

maybe it was a simple song we made. one that is enjoyable :)
i do like it.
though it lacks in complexity
and often wasn't the sound i wanted...

or was it?

could I remix it? ^^
can we...

it was recorded
in memory...
mine, anyways.

i wonder,
does he remember how it goes
or even want to hear it again?

maybe he will...

~~~

Sometimes you like a song, and then later dislike it. You know!
How about music that you once didn't like, but learned to like later? That happens too... which can be very interesting.

Art has that temporal element to it as well, somebody said to me recently. Your taste evolves based on your present state.
And that state can never be predicted.

~~~

so take your time, margo...
i don't think that tune can be erased
and maybe in the mean time,
you can think about how you'd like to change it up



Saturday, April 18, 2015

On our giant bus traveling through space, headed towards the future

So I was having an interesting conversation with someone last night, some real talk about world issues. We had some fundamental disagreements about the future of humanity: while I'm optimistic that humanity will ultimately evolve in a positive direction and that we can learn how to live in harmony with the planet/living beings/society, his opinion is that humanity is basically fucked and we are too deep in this shit to get out.  I agreed that we are facing crises and we will continue to face crises... but I still have faith in humanity.  He thought my beliefs are like some mythical fairy tale unicorns and rainbows worldview (I paraphrase)... and I can see how he would think that. The good thing is that I'm totally willing to be disproven... I'm willing to admit that I'm wrong, or to change my worldview and opinions, if exposed to the info/experiences that would show me that humanity actually is fucked beyond repair.  For now, I do think that our current systems that are in place can be changed, and will change, since they are fundamentally unsustainable... and nature, as it tends to, will force us into a state of greater equilibrium, which we can only surrender to if we wish to survive. And while I'm stuck in a human body, I might as well put my work and energy towards building that kind of positive future and alternative/progressive society.  

Anyways, we got into the subject of overpopulation, and he gave an analogy that went like this: the planet is like a bus and only a certain number of people can fit on it... and at this point, its way too crowded and has passed max capacity. I said that I agree somewhat with that analogy, but also disagree. I started compiling some info backing up my opinion in an email, and then figured I should make this into a blog, since there's alot of good info here:

Roughly one third of the food produced in the world for human consumption every year — approximately 1.3 billion tonnes — gets lost or wasted. FOOD WASTE FACTS <-- check that crazy shit! 

  • In developing countries food waste and losses occur mainly at early stages of the food value chain and can be traced back to financial, managerial and technical constraints in harvesting techniques as well as storage –and cooling facilities. Thus, a strengthening of the supply chain through the support farmers and investments in infrastructure, transportation, as well as in an expansion of the food –and packaging industry could help to reduce the amount of food loss and waste. 
<-- This begins to illustrate why I think it's not just about having too many people on the bus. It may be a little more like... the rich/privileged people get to take two seats, and the poor people have to get strapped to the roof of the bus, piled on top of each other... so those in "developed" countries get to live comfortably while other people get screwed. And they remain out of sight... so people can buy their sweatshop clothes and not think about where they actually came from, for instance. Feel me? Anyways, this is why I think the root of the problem is less about the number of people and more about the fucked up systems that keep people oppressed, and encourage ignorance.    

Here are some more reasons why I think that... 
And just to be clear: 
The vast majority of the world's hungry people live in developing countries, where 13.5 percent of the population is undernourished. Hunger Statistics 
Ok so, the wealthy can just give their extra food to the poor, right? Wrong: 
Certain types of food “aid” (when not for emergency relief) can actually be destructive. Dumping food on to poorer nations (i.e. free, subsidized, or cheap food, below market prices) undercuts local farmers, who cannot compete and are driven out of jobs and into poverty, further slanting the market share of the larger producers such as those from the US and Europe. Food Aid as Dumping
The better solution would be if developing countries can build up their own local agriculture and economy...
A consensus is emerging that addressing the new challenges requires a Sustainable Agricultural Intensification (SAI) in small and large farms throughout the world. Simple operational definition of the objective of SAI is to provide sufficient, accessible, nutritious food, while enabling economic and social development in rural areas and treating people, animals and the environment with respect. Solutions for Sustainable Agriculture and Food Systems  <-- (looks like an amazing report that I'd like to dive into!)  
Back to the analogy... I still believe there's enough space on the bus to fit all the people... if patterns of food consumption could shift: 


The livestock sector is by far the single largest anthropogenic user of land. Grazing occupies 26 percent of the Earth's terrestrial surface, while feed crop production requires about a third of all arable land. Livestock impacts on the environment - FAO

<-- So again, it's not about the number of people... it's about systems and culture, about lifestyles and consumption choices. It's actually about things we can control, provided we have the awareness and motivation to do so. 

Clearly our situation on the planet is extremely complicated, and I'm only touching on a subset of issues here. But I'm still optimistic! What am I missing? Come at me ^^  

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

Secret of Calm

Sometimes
I get hit with a massive wave
like a brief tsunami
... but sometimes not so brief...
a rumbling under the surface
shaking the ocean floor.
A disturbance?
Perhaps a shift towards a greater equilibrium.
The ocean below sends a signal
Hey-- this is unfinished,
you should tend to this
you should pay attention
this remains unsolved
and every heart beat that sends currents of blood through my body
and waves of thought into my mind
and breath of life into my chest
should remind me of this force of nature that has no reckoning
administering a pulse, a shockwave
a reminder of the longing.
The vast, dark, imperceptible depths can't conceal
what exists within my essence
as if to whisper through trans-continental winds,

"Remember Me."

Wednesday, December 18, 2013

dark in the light

Dark in the Light


Take the dark candle into the light
carry the sadness, remember the night

Sunshine will pass and again you will find
The darkness that lurks in the depths of your mind

The loneliness, pain, rejection, and fear
These negative thoughts you should keep ever near

They are not enemies, they are very real
They creep back again if you try to conceal

And if you forget, they will come roaring back
if you build walls, they will seep through the cracks

they are ever there, these negative thoughts
they cant be contained, and cannot be caught

they are like a child you must let wander free
coming and going like waves of the sea

embrace them and know that they are not bad
keep that in mind and you wont become mad

when they surface again, don’t be surprised
just know it’s a part of being alive

its best not to do these extreme up and downs
try to stay balanced, the center surround

because I am whole and I have many sides
I am but one being while on this ride

This journey through lifetimes will bring the unknown
The storms will be felt and the hurricanes blown

But I am still Me, and that never will change
I have to be ready to deal with the strange

And not get knocked over by winds on the way
I can be strong and I will save the day

I am the hero, I am the one
My soul gives me life, my cosmic sun

I cannot but love it, it is everything
It is the spirit from which I can sing

I must love myself, or I will be lost
This hurdle of life can only be crossed

It is one step closer to finding the truth
Treasure to hold, like a fountain of youth

So hold on to that center and do not let go
The good and the bad are all part of this show

But I will remain, so do not lose sight
Where pleasure meets pain, and darkness meets light

Hang on tight, cause things might get rough
Expecting from others is never enough

I am the one who will follow my dreams
My soul is the sun from which rays will beam

It comes from no other, but only within
So take a deep breath and let us begin

Starting fresh, I gather my strength and move on
I take my walking stick and we go along

Enjoying the nature, a world to behold
Gathering memories, stories are told

Infinite wonders are to be found
On this beautiful planet to which I am bound

Never forget how much beauty awaits
You can find out if you open the gates

Just let the world love you, don’t hide away
Experience what the world gives you today

Wake up to the now, and see what is real
These layers of ignorance, they only shield

The light from your eyes, which you want to shine
The love of this world is here to be mine

So idle no longer, and open your heart

Of this endless beauty, I am a part.

~ m.e.    12.17.13

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

lights in the dark

tonight i was riding my bike back home... alone through the woods, between villages. it was close to midnight. the only reason i went thru the woods was because my friend had leant me her headlamp... otherwise i would have taken the streets, because my bike light is broken and i wouldn't want to go through that forest alone without a light.

anyways, going thru the forest is cooler than taking the streets ^^

my friend/roommate hannah and i went through it the other night without lights... but we were together. was still kinda scary... but we were talking about how we like to put ourselves in scary situations sometimes like that, in order to push our boundaries... to challenge ourselves to be less afraid.  actually, scary situations like this kind of fascinate me, because i want to learn to have less fear, in general...

but actually, i was surprised tonight because it was actually super creepy even with the headlamp. it was chilly, and misty... the light was bright and i thought, what if i just saw a pair of eyes reflecting ahead of me, i would... idk...

but i made it through, to some dimly lit paths. so i turned off my light, and started to push my bike up the hill.  now i could see that the stars were shining so brightly :)  then when i was out of breath, i stopped to take a break, and turned my head around... and that very moment, i saw an amazing shooting star crossing the sky-- it was so long! so i closed my eyes, and made a wish <3

good thing i looked behind me right in that moment! ^^

then, since i was there all alone, i started singing some lines from our new Cyntrific song (not yet released) :

the dark of night reveals the stars
a distant future is all ours
with endless possibilities
the hearts and minds of everyone
embrace the whole world in our arms
it all revolves around the sun 

:)

i was just admiring the stars for a little while... and then i kept climbing up the hill. i turned on the headlight again... but this time only so i could avoid stepping on the slugs.  and not even cause that's gross (which of course it is), but mostly cause i just don't want to kill them.

Friday, August 30, 2013

Syria

starting a thread about Syria... just ranting and adding info as i go ^^

this article (below) really helped open my eyes. i've been wanting to better understand the situation in Syria for a long time and now I feel like I have a better sense of what's really going on:

War With Syria and its Repercussions

Any person using the slightest bit of common sense would not assume the Syrian Government is responsible for the recent chemical weapons attack. For example, the UN is currently in Syria — invited by Assad — investigating a previous chemical weapons attack, since Assad blamed the previous attacks on the US backed rebels. It's possible that the most recent chemical weapons attack also serves to distract from the ongoing UN investigation that would have proved Assad right. 

I also had a really interesting discussion with the local organic food shop owner, who is Syrian.  he says it's obvious that Assad didn't commit the attack... why would he do this right when he invited the UN there to investigate? this reflected the info i read in the above article ^
he also told me some interesting things i did not know... that 60 different nationalities are coming together from all over the world to fight on the extremist rebel side (and in the second vid below, one girl says 150...) and essentially the US gov't is backing al qaeda, who is affiliated with the rebels.

here's an article I just found on that:

Syria accuses West of cooperating with Al Qaeda

http://www.albawaba.com/news/syria-accuses-west-cooperating-al-qaeda-424839


anyways, really appreciate Luke's reporting on this... these two vids contrast each other:


and this one is like a breath of fresh air: 






wow this vid is incredibly touching: http://www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/worldviews/wp/2013/08/27/the-first-truly-heartwarming-video-from-syria-in-a-long-time/



I found this vid pretty enlightening... explains the larger geo-political interests involved in destabilizing Syria:



and here Corbett breaks down the hypocrisy of the US gov't in decrying the use of chemical weapons:




oh yea! this is great... politics i can enjoy watching ^^ 

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

CoLd_Friction - Last Star FT Margo Elena

i love this!!! and there's a nice story to go with it ^^


i think I started working on vocals with CF around January or February... and I didn't actually feature in a song until April (Broken Drum).  we tossed around a lot of ideas during that time (i got lots of good practice!), and i sent him quite a few samples... one of them was intended for a vocal edit on his song Snow Blind which was released a while back.  here's that song:


I did a simple vocal to go with it-- the lyrics were:

don't let me fall asleep
the fire's burning out 
it disappears

... the song kinda has that creepy feel (which i like)... and i was imagining that it was the dead of winter (which it was at the time) and we had a fire which we needed to keep burning if we wanted to stay warm, so that's where the lyrics came from ^^ kinda random idea i guess xP

anyways... he decided not to do the vocal edit, so this sample has been sitting around for idk, close to half a year probably. and yesterday he surprised me when he said that he's using them again! it's amazing what he's done... he pitched them up slightly (and only used part of the lyrics as u can hear, but i think it sounds great!), and he also used them for the white noise and the pads in the background!! which just goes to show what awesome skills he's developed by now :)  interesting thing is that he can do much more with the vocals than he could have when i gave them to him!

oh i also love this because i'm like soooo busy right now and don't have much time for vocals, unfortunately :c  i've been wanting to do another feature with CF though... and luckily, my hard work in the past is paying off now! i feel like some good karma came back to me :D

so this song is pretty special to me CF says he'd like to do an extended version... really curious to hear what he comes up with next!