Monday, March 5, 2018

morning gratitude

grateful for this life
for every cell
for my health

grateful for the rivers and branches of blood that flow thru me
that discolored liquid
rich with nutrients

grateful for every atom
each vibration
every movement
this miracle
the dance of life and non-life
changing and transforming one into the other
for evolution
for the journey

grateful for the ground
my home
this earth
our Mother
the nourisher
the body giver
her impregnable soils
her tolerance
her sacrifice

grateful for the brother and sister planets
male sun
female moon
light and dark
that constant pattern
moving in circles
spiraling forth
that mathematical perfection
that we strive for
that we love, for we are made from it

grateful the the space between
for the unknown
for the mystery


omg its been over a year since I posted! geez.
I need to get back into this.
I am returning to my self.

Friday, February 17, 2017

the gamble


life is coveted

i mean it is pretty popular, here on earth...

maybe the spirits take a gamble on life

try their hand out

...winning is supremely gratifying

so they go for it, willing to risk

the sufferring, the agony of emotions

the inevitable physical pain

maybe its why

we dont want to die

because life is so precious, so rewarding

Thursday, December 17, 2015

single and safe

being single and safe is so, so much better than being stuck dealing with the woes of a horrible relationship.

things aren't so bad.

Thursday, November 19, 2015

pure consciousness related thoughts, and meditation motivation

Some thoughts that occurred to me while meditating:

Meditation effectively places one's experience of conscious awareness
in closer proximity to one’s essence of consciousness itself,
the ultimate experience of which
is aligning and merging those entities.

Glimmers, waves, and immersion in bliss
offer an idea of what pure consciousness actually is--
that which makes us and drives us,
yet ironically
remains elusive to true comprehension.  

I think that the practice of meditation
strengthens the bridge, the bond between pure consciousness and individual conscious awareness 
thereby encouraging action that is in greater accordance with that very essence, 
effectively inviting a higher state of blissful experience within day to day life. 

Monday, August 24, 2015


I'm starting to do research on adoption... cause I think a few years down the line I'd like to adopt.

The decline isn't due to fewer orphans worldwide nor waning demand from prospective parents, experts say. It is due to rising regulations and growing sentiment in countries such as Russia and China against sending orphans abroad.

As international adoption rates fall, there is one country that is sending more children abroad: The United States.

As China slows international adoptions, the number of children filling its orphanages is climbing -- rising to 92,000 in 2011, almost a 50% rise from 2004, according to China's Ministry of Civil Affairs.

Costs -- which can be as high as $50,000 -- continue to climb. The wait can stretch for years even after an adoptive parent and child are matched as the adoption paperwork wades through the bureaucracies of both sending and receiving nations.

Stats on orphan rates internationally
It is estimated that 153 million children worldwide, ranging from infants to teenagers, have lost one or both parents
Asia is home to the larged number of orphaned children in the world; 60 million, at last count
There are 10.2 million orphaned children in Latin America, 5% of all children in the region

There are over 120,000 orphans in America, while another 400,000 children live without permanent families
27,000 children age out of the system every year

<-- So sad!! :(

In addition, most adoptions from U.S. foster care are free and any minimal costs associated with them are often reimbursable. For international adoptions from Hague Convention countries in 2010, service providers charged anywhere between nothing to $64,357, with half charging less than $26,559.
You don’t need to own your own home, be wealthy, have children already, or be a stay-at-home parent to adopt.
While slightly more than half of all children who enter foster care return to their birth families, there are still thousands of children who cannot return home. Of the 51,000 children in foster care adopted last year, 54 percent were adopted by their foster parents. 
In most instances, a person’s marital status, age, income, or sexual orientation do not automatically disqualify them from eligibility to adopt. You don’t need to own your own home, have children already, be young, wealthy, or a stay-at-home parent.
In 2011, 32 percent of children adopted from foster care were matched with either a single-parent household or unmarried couple. This includes adoptions by lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender (LGBT) families.
Experienced parents and empty-nesters are encouraged to adopt. In most instances, you’re eligible to adopt regardless of age, income, marital status, disability, or sexual orientation. You don’t need to own your own home, be young, wealthy, or a stay-at-home parent.
Placing siblings together is almost always the best thing for them after being separated from their birth parents. It helps provide continuity and protects them from suffering additional loss. Currently 23 percent of children photolisted on AdoptUSKids are siblings who need to be placed together.

The Hope of Being Adopted

Omg i cried so much

  1. Adoption and long-term fostering are both situations which can provide a permanent home for a child, but there are some differences.Adoption is a process which legally removes the rights and responsibilities of the child's birth parent(s), and transfers them to adoptive parent(s).
  2. Fostering does not provide the same legal security for either the foster carers or the child, and would usually only continue until the children and young people are 18. However it means the child can keep their ties with their birth family, who may remain involved in any important decisions being made about their child, and would usually be encouraged to have regular contact with their child.
KidsPeace (Indiana) 

Wow, here's a listing of children in IL that need to be adopted and their pictures:

I should volunteer with this place... 

Each year, thousands of children are adopted from overseas. Since 2003, the Adoption Center has specialized in providing medical and developmental care to adopted children. Hundreds of children and families have been shepherded through the process of adoption by our empathetic and expert staff. 

Ok that's a lot of info for now.

I have no preference regarding where the child comes from... what I'm interested in is to adopt where the need is highest, or where I'm helping to alleviate a problem... and it looks like of course, the need is high everywhere, but it's becoming harder to adopt internationally due to restraints created by the foreign countries... which is unfortunate.  I am fully open to domestic adoption, and after finding out the above info, it makes alot more sense for me... also considering that I most likely will not be wealthy enough to afford international adoption. Someday if I do get rich, I might put myself on the waiting list ;)